Through prayer to God I have obtained the privilege of seeing your most
worthy faces, and have even been granted more than I requested; for I hope
as a prisoner in Christ Jesus to salute you, if indeed it be the will of God
that I be thought worthy of attaining unto the end. For the beginning has
been well ordered, if I may obtain grace to cling to my lot without
hindrance unto the end. For I am afraid of your love, lest it should do me
an injury. For it is easy for you to accomplish what you please; but it is
difficult for me to attain to God, if ye spare me.
CHAPTER 2
DO NOT SAVE ME FROM MARTYRDOM
For it is not my desire to act towards you as a man-pleaser, but as pleasing
God, even as also ye please Him. For neither shall I ever have such
[another] opportunity of attaining to God; nor will ye, if ye shall now be
silent, ever be entitled to the honor of a better work. For if ye are silent
concerning me, I shall become God’s; but if you show your love to my
flesh, I shall again have to run my race. Pray, then, do not seek to confer
any greater favor upon me than that I be sacrificed to God while the altar is
still prepared; that, being gathered together in love, ye may sing praise to
the Father, through Christ Jesus, that God has deemed me, the bishop of
Syria, worthy to be sent for from the east unto the west. It is good to set
from the world unto God, that I may rise again to Him.
CHAPTER 3
PRAY RATHER THAT I MAY ATTAIN TO MARTYRDOM
Ye have never envied any one; ye have taught others. Now I desire that
those things may be confirmed [by your conduct], which in your
instructions ye enjoin [on others]. Only request in my behalf both inward
and outward strength, that I may not only speak, but [truly] will; and that
I may not merely be called a Christian, but really be found to be one. For if
I be truly found [a Christian], I may also be called one, and be then deemed
faithful, when I shall no longer appear to the world. Nothing visible is
eternal. “For the things which are seen are temporal, but the things which
are not seen are eternal.” For our God, Jesus Christ, Now that He is with
the Father, is all the more revealed [in His glory]. Christianity is not a
thing of silence only, but also of [manifest] greatness.
CHAPTER 4
ALLOW ME TO FALL A PREY TO THE WILD BEASTS
I write to the Churches, and impress on them all, that I shall willingly die
for God, unless ye hinder me. I beseech of you not to show an
unseasonable good-will towards me. Suffer me to become food for the wild
beasts, through whose instrumentality it will be granted me to attain to
God. I am the wheat of God, and let me be ground by the teeth of the wild
beasts, that I may be found the pure bread of Christ. Rather entice the wild
beasts, that they may become my tomb, and may leave nothing of my
body; so that when I have fallen asleep [in death], I may be no trouble to
any one. Then shall I truly be a disciple of Christ, when the world shall
not see so much as my body. Entreat Christ for me, that by these
instruments I may be found a sacrifice [to God]. I do not, as Peter and
Paul, issue commandments unto you. They were apostles; I am but a
condemned man: they were free, while I am, even until now, a servant. But
when I suffer, I shall be the freedman of Jesus, and shall rise again
emancipated in Him. And now, being a prisoner, I learn not to desire
anything worldly or vain.
CHAPTER 5
I DESIRE TO DIE
From Syria even unto Rome I fight with beasts, both by land and sea, both
by night and day, being bound to ten leopards, I mean a band of soldiers,
who, even when they receive benefits, show themselves all the worse. But
I am the more instructed by their injuries [to act as a disciple of Christ];
“yet am I not thereby justified.” May I enjoy the wild beasts that are
prepared for me; and I pray they may be found eager to rush upon me,
which also I will entice to devour me speedily, and not deal with me as
with some, whom, out of fear, they have not touched. But if they be
unwilling to assail me, I will compel them to do so. Pardon me [in this]: I
know what is for my benefit. Now I begin to be a disciple. And let no one,
of things visible or invisible, envy me that I should attain to Jesus Christ.
Let fire and the cross; let the crowds of wild beasts; let tearings, breakings,
and dislocations of bones; let cutting off of members; let shatterings of the
whole body; and let all the dreadful torments of the devil come upon me:
only let me attain to Jesus Christ.
CHAPTER 6
BY DEATH I SHALL ATTAIN TRUE LIFE
All the pleasures of the world, and all the kingdoms of this earth, shall
profit me nothing. It is better for me to die in behalf of Jesus Christ, than
to reign over all the ends of the earth. “For what shall a man be profited, if
he gain the whole world, but lose his own soul?” Him I seek, who died for
us: Him I desire, who rose again for our sake. This is the gain which is laid
up for me. Pardon me, brethren: do not hinder me from living, do not wish
to keep me in a state of death; and while I desire to belong to God, do not
ye give me over to the world. Suffer me to obtain pure light: when I have
gone thither, I shall indeed be a man of God. Permit me to be an imitator of
the passion of my God. If any one has Him within himself, let him
consider what I desire, and let him have sympathy with me, as knowing
how I am straitened.
CHAPTER 7
REASON OF DESIRING TO DIE
The prince of this world would fain carry me away, and corrupt my
disposition towards God. Let none of you, therefore, who are [in Rome]
help him; rather be ye on my side, that is, on the side of God. Do not
speak of Jesus Christ, and yet set your desires on the world. Let not envy
find a dwelling-place among you; nor even should I, when present with
you, exhort you to it, be ye persuaded to listen to me, but rather give
credit to those things which I now write to you. For though I am alive
while I write to you, yet I am eager to die. My love has been crucified, and
there is no fire in me desiring to be fed; but there is within me a water that
liveth and speaketh, saying to me inwardly, Come to the Father. I have no
delight in corruptible food, nor in the pleasures of this life. I desire the
bread of God, the heavenly bread, the bread of life, which is the flesh of
Jesus Christ, the Son of God, who became afterwards of the seed of David
and Abraham; and I desire the drink of God, namely His blood, which is
incorruptible love and eternal life.
CHAPTER 8
BE YE FAVORABLE TO ME
I no longer wish to live after the manner of men, and my desire shall be
fulfilled if ye consent. Be ye willing, then, that ye also may have your
desires fulfilled. I entreat you in this brief letter; do ye give credit to me.
Jesus Christ will reveal these things to you, [so that ye shall know] that I
speak truly. He is the mouth altogether free from falsehood, by which the
Father has truly spoken. Pray ye for me, that I may attain [the object of
my desire]. I have not written to you according to the flesh, but according
to the will of God. If I shall suffer, ye have wished [well] to me; but if I am
rejected, ye have hated me.
CHAPTER 9
PRAY FOR THE CHURCH IN SYRIA
Remember in your prayers the Church in Syria, which now has God for its
shepherd, instead of me. Jesus Christ alone will oversee it, and your love
[will also regard it]. But as for me, I am ashamed to be counted one of
them; for indeed I am not worthy, as being the very last of them, and one
born out of due time. But I have obtained mercy to be somebody, if I shall
attain to God. My spirit salutes you, and the love of the Churches that
have received me in the name of Jesus Christ, and not as a mere passer-by.
For even those Churches which were not near to me in the way, I mean
according to the flesh, have gone before me, city by city, [to meet me.]
CHAPTER 10
CONCLUSION
Now I write these things to you from Smyrna by the Ephesians, who are
deservedly most happy. There is also with me, along with many others,
Crocus, one dearly beloved by me. As to those who have gone before me.156
from Syria to Rome for the glory of God, I believe that you are acquainted
with them; to whom, [then,] do ye make known that I am at hand. For
they are all worthy, both of God and of you; and it is becoming that you
should refresh them in all things. I have written these things unto you, on
the day before the ninth of the Kalends of September (that is, on the
twenty-third day of August). Fare ye well to the end, in the patience of
Jesus Christ. Amen.